Just listen

"Hold me now I need to feel relief Like I never wanted anythingI suppose I'll let this go and find a reason I'll hold on to I'm so ashamed of defeat And I'm out of reason to believe in me I'm out of trying to get by I'm so afraid of the gift you give me I don't belong here and I'm not well I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living Right on the wrong side of it all I can't face myself when I wake up And look inside a mirrorI 'm so ashamed of that thing I suppose I'll let it go Untill I have something more to say for me I'm so afraid of defeat And I'm out of reason to believe in me I'm out of trying to defy I'm so afraid of the gift you give me I don't belong here and I'm not well I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living Right on the wrong side of it all Hold me now I need to feel completeLike I matter to the one I need I'm so afraid of the gift you give meI don't belong here and I'm not wellI'm so ashamed of the lie I'm livingRight on the wrong side of it all Now I'm ashamed of thisI am so ashamed of this Now I'm so ashamed of this I am so ashamed of me..."
Seether

My heart bleeds

I am a sell out.
Oh, woe to the day that I would succumb to the utter desperation of no one hearing me and splashing my thoughts on a blog. Times are hard. Lord why choose me in this quest of weakness?! However, I have dignity. I will I say I will refuse to gloriously digress my life with such aplomb that its supposed to be interesting. No my fellow accomplices I will stand tall and slew out only garbage that no man shall dare believe to understand! My hands might be weak but heart is strong.

Je suis la reine de ma langue